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how would you feel, if you are not welcomed in the family of yours? and the level of unwelcome-ness is so high, that they made you do never-ending chores when most of them are not supposed to be your fixed chores, never letting you to have some free time to do your school assignments and you have no choice but to either do it midnight or the next day in school. not forgetting all the times they blame you for every single mistake that occur everytime and when i say every single mistakes, it includes those mistakes that weren't yours at all. look, they got the fun to embarrass you at public and don't even give a damn about how you feel, and i suppose that they are having the satisfaction of seeing your reputation drop like no one's business.

and how would you feel, when you have parents butting into every issue of yours. well, for some of you, you might feel okay cause you are open-minded and your parents too, are open-minded people. but, what if your family isn't those kind of people? they are those who wants to know everything that happen in your everyday life, don't care whether it is important or not, private or not. they would just butt into your privacy, ignoring the sign that said "everyone have their own privacy and you can't possibly barge into it". instead of being fair and doing it to a the whole family, they practically just chose you as their one and only target. have you ever lived your life with your privacy got rampaged through for more than 3 consecutive years? i bet you don't.

or why not this. you were so busy with your projects and school works but your parents were oh-so-smart to ask you to help them with some stuffs when your siblings are watching tv or doing other stuffs which are so relaxing. and whenever you argued with your parents and you fight back to prove that you are not the only person wrong by mentioning you sibling's mistake which was true, your parents would just shoot you back by saying "don't ever try to pull your sister/brother into this. i'm talking about you and they got nothing to do with it." then you found out half of the sentence was totally false but you can't say anything unless you want to receive another slap from your parents. and from the start of your life till now, they just kept on telling you that they are doing these for your good, they're being fair when dealing issues, they're right, and you're the only one who's wrong and you don't even heve the slightest chance to prove yourself right cause whatever you say to them, they'd keep on proving you wrong.








if you'd read this whole passage, i'd like to thank you for being such a great listener if you just don't go "omg this girl is so LOA. wtf" or "wtf is she trying to say? go insult her own family man. such a bitch." or whatever stuffs you all think about this. just trying to express myself. i don't wanna seek stupid attentions cause i'm kinda used to the i-can-emo-all-i-want-cause-no-one-will-care moment. and fyi, don't come to me saying "ehh i read your blog, you okay anot? chill laa." "parents marr, let them be laa" and the list goes on. i'll feel irritated if i hear those sentence repeating at my ears non-stop. == so if you wanna know what happened, be smart abit.

goodnight.