whrthhllsvryn.

Junyi. kns. =) says:
lalala xD

Junyi. kns. =) says:
LOL

=ll patricia ll= says:
laaaaaaaalaaaaaaaalaaaaaaaaaaaa

=ll patricia ll= says:
i thought you going somewhere wan ?

Junyi. kns. =) says:
ahaha im in HK nowwwwwwwwwwww

Junyi. kns. =) says:
xDD\

=ll patricia ll= says:
oh shit youuuu

Junyi. kns. =) says:
bluekkkkkkk

=ll patricia ll= says:
HAHAHA

Junyi. kns. =) says:
i updated my blog

Junyi. kns. =) says:
AHAHA

=ll patricia ll= says:
eh you better buy me something

=ll patricia ll= says:
i just view it

Junyi. kns. =) says:
ahahah okayyy okayy

Junyi. kns. =) says:
=D

=ll patricia ll= says:
eh damn cute right -->*smiley icons*

=ll patricia ll= says:
LOLOLOOLOL!

Junyi. kns. =) says:
ahahahaha yeala yeala

Junyi. kns. =) says:
xD

Junyi. kns. =) says:
wheres everyone?

Junyi. kns. =) says:
no one online wannn

=ll patricia ll= says:
i don't know

=ll patricia ll= says:
i on9 from 11 am till now

=ll patricia ll= says:
i only talk to you

=ll patricia ll= says:
wtf rite

Junyi. kns. =) says:
ahahaha WTF

=ll patricia ll= says:
ISH WEI

Junyi. kns. =) says:
i just talked finish to bryan LOL

Junyi. kns. =) says:
damn no one onlineeeeeeeeeeee

=ll patricia ll= says:
i knowwwwwww

=ll patricia ll= says:
damn sakai

=ll patricia ll= says:
LOL

Junyi. kns. =) says:
lol

Junyi. kns. =) says:
mmg lahh

Junyi. kns. =) says:
no one update their blogs too LOL

=ll patricia ll= says:
i got

Junyi. kns. =) says:
lol i viewed

Junyi. kns. =) says:
xD

=ll patricia ll= says:
haha

Junyi. kns. =) says:
lol

=ll patricia ll= says:
k lah

Junyi. kns. =) says:
damnn sien ishhhhhhhhhhhh

=ll patricia ll= says:
i gtg

Junyi. kns. =) says:
LOL

=ll patricia ll= says:
HAHA

Junyi. kns. =) says:
damnnnn

=ll patricia ll= says:
I GOTTA GO

=ll patricia ll= says:
BYEEEE

Junyi. kns. =) says:
I HATE YOUUUUUUUU

=ll patricia ll= says:
HAHAAHAHAHA

=ll patricia ll= says:
HAHAHA

Junyi. kns. =) says:
i.m gonna blog bout it

=ll patricia ll= says:
LOL!

=ll patricia ll= says:
be happy lonely-ing on msn babe

=ll patricia ll= says:
BYE

=ll patricia ll= says:
LOL!

Junyi. kns. =) says:
byee





yorr..see lahh nowwwwwwwwwww.
i hate youuuuuuuuuuuuu.
i'm rotting hereeeee.
wheres EVERYONE?!!!




tuning into: white christmas - connie talbot

nthmytpps.

hey all!!
missed me? xDDD
i'm still in hongkong. wondering how i can blog?
i'm at pacific coffee, a coffee bar in some shopping centre in tung chung.
lol. its kinda cool cause its free! =)

damn i still haven't shop for my items.
and for souvenirs. *dont expect too much from me! xP*
and this spacebar here is bugging me cause its loosen
and it hardly spacebar for you. ==

i think i gotta stop here?
will continue more when i'm back to m'sia
or maybe when i get hold of another computer
which provides free internet service. =)

byeeee peeps.

p/s: imissyouso.

whtsmychc.

even though the choices are many,
my mind only consist of only 2 options.

lalalalala~~ LOL
as you can see, i'm bored.
the damn server can't connect my flyff.
ishhh. *dulann*
anyway.. another 3+ hour..
i'm gonna rot soon. =(

i'm gonna miss most of youuuuuuuuuuu.





Waiting for your call, I'm sick
call, I'm angry
call, I'm desperate for your voice.
I'm listening to the song we used to sing in the car.
Do you remember, butterfly, early summer?

p/s: waiting.
tuning into: your call - secondhand serenade

mfftsmwhrls.

keep trying, then one day you might suceed.

heyy there. lol.
its practically 2.15am now. ==
bro's asleep, using his laptop =P
sis's using the comp outside.
wondering where am i?
ahahaa.. i'm in my bro's room, that's where his laptop is.

jeezz.. half freezing here due to the aircond. ==
in another 13 hours i will be going to the airport,
waiting to board the evening flight.
to where? hong kong.
i know its erhh.. a common place? LOL
well its just that my relatives are staying there.
must visit visit what right?? ahaha.

well then,
i'll be off till.. monday.
don't miss me too much kayy? xD
ahahaha LOL
i suppose i'm gonna miss quite a number of people.

hmmm..
anyone's gonna send me off? =P
just jokingggggg.
you want send me off also can.
i don't mind. xDDD
okayy lahh.. off to bed?
gotta wake up later to pack the rest of my things,
for example toothbrush and toothpaste LOL

stop writing edii lahh.
"nights". sweetdreams & sleep tight all. =)

mbrntblktht.

Rules :

* Pick your birth month .
* Strike out anything that doesn't apply to you .
* Bold (or italicize) the best apply to you .
* Copy to your own blog , with all twelve months .
* Tag 10 people

January
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized.Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

February
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

March
Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

April
Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

May
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

June
Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills.Talk ative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

July
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

August
Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

September
Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

October
Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

November
Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.

December
Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor.









June
Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken *sometimes*. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talk active. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.


its just about me, this is who i tend to be.














and my eyes are screaming for the sight of you
and tonight I'm dreaming of all the things that we've been through
and I can't hold on to you.
so I guess I feel lonely, too.

tuning into: suppose - secondhand serenade

tsyrpssn,yrlfstyl.

heyy there all.
well, nothing to post about now. lol.

just wanna say something to somebody.

to the cousin, jayh:

well i bet you cant even read this LOL. you left to bukit jalil early in the morning today. hmm.. just want to wish you all the best here, because i didn't get to do it at the day before. =X do well out there in the field. everyone knows you can. and don't give up easily. =) we all (your friends, family, not forgetting your girl xD), will always support you. have fun there okay? you're gonna be there for about a month. no rotting arr.. ahaa.



smiles.

nthnglsnthswrld.

there's nothing in this world
there's not another boy that can make me feel so sweet.

jeeeez. hey there all.
first and the most common question ever,
how's holidays?
i feel so bored at home.
i want to go outttttttttttttttt~!!
someone make some plans? ahaa.
anyway this is also just the sake of an update for the bloggiie.
toodles then. =)

tuning into: there's nothing ft. paula deanda - sean kingston

tggdbyxiner.

1. Rules of this tag.
# Each blogger must post this rules.

# Each blogger starts with ten random facts/habbits about themselves.
# Blogger that are tagged need to write about ten thing about their blog and post these rules.
# You need to choose ten people to get tagged and list their names.
# Don't forget to leave them comment telling them they've been tagged and to read your blog .

2. Ten random facts/habbits about me.
# love to break down words to my so-called codes.
# like to camwhore.
# bad temper since young.
# addicted to flyff.
# addicted watching csi. (vegas, miami, new york)
# always on the emo side.
# love listening to music.
# always want more outings.
# hates toufu.
# loves pink.

3. about my blog?
# its in my style of writing.
# its mostly in black and pink.
# its about my daily life.
# it has pictures.
# it has some quotes.
# it has music playing.
# it has a nuffnang poll.
# it has some of my rants.
# it has a list of what i want.
# its has a c-box for you to talk.

Tag:
# anyone who's willing to do this.

flyff.

hey there.. as everyone knows, its already holidays for all except spm-ers and stpm-ers. as i can see, most people are rotting at home, including me. lol. well there's a few times of outings, but its seems as if its not enough. well, don't know why i've been addicted to flyff. i guess its my brother's influnce? ahaa. well, if you're wondering what's flyff, it stands for fly for fun. its a online game, just like ragnarok, maple, bla bla bla.. i'm not asking you to play lahh. just that there's nothing to write so random-ly lahh. lol. if you wanna play you gotta download it. lol. ahaa. anyway.. i'm gonna go play flyff now. toodles!




p/s: i wish i could jump her to mount everest and drop her there.
tuning into: new classic ft. selena gomez - drew seely

whtsthsfstyng.

gahhh. i'm so friggin bored at home.. didn't go out.. well.. i'll take the time to update a lil on last saturday *15 nov*.


morning:
went to xia shuen's house for a small meeting. well not really a meeting la. just for the joti camp things. lol. stayed there from 10am - 12+. went home, get ready for sze jie's car to yee lei's house.

afternoon:
got lost when we're at kemuning (on the way to lei's house), in the end we get to reach there. aha. watched jumper and mirrors. there's about 12 people there if i'm not wrong. (lei, sek, jules, fiona, shanel, me, bryan, sze jie, kelvin, boon hui, lei's friend and someone *i forgot*)

evening:
left lei's house early to go home and get ready for dinner. ate dinner with cousins at usj11. then depart to the airport to pick up bro who came home from aussie. he looked like a australia-korean dude now. lol. then we went to taipan's old taste to meet up with jayh and his dad. chit chatted there then went home. jayh slept over at our house. aha



done for now? lol.
gtg. byeeee.

tggdbytzia-e.

Instructions:

Complete the tag below.
Tag 10 people.
Notify them in their chatbox that they've been tagged.

The last person to tagged you are ??
* tzia-e

Your relationship with him/her?
* she's my babee.

Your 5 impression towards him/her?
* very-the-ss
* very-the-sampat
* smart
* cute
* pretty

The most memorable thing that he/she has ever done for you?
* don't know.. something?

The most memorable words that he/she has say to you?
* lemme see... don't know

If he/she become ur lover ,you will
* no wayy lahh.

If he/she becomes your enemy, you will...
* make her my friend again?

If he/she becomes your lover, he/she has to improve on...
* she's a girl!

If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason is...
* some reason.

The most desirable things to do for him/her is...
* lemme think.

Overall impression towards him/her is...
* great.

How do you think the people around you will feel about you?
* ask them.

The characters for you for yourself is?
* no idea.

On contrary, the characters you hate of yourself is?
* something?

The most ideal person you want to be is?
* no idea.

For the person who cares and likes you, say something about them
* thanks and i appreciate it.

Chocolate or ice-cream?
* ice cream.

10 people to tag.
* junjie.
* zhenying.
* yatkuan.
* taemi.
* shuying.
* shaunavoon.
* patriciatan.
* beatrice.
* elaineseng.
* keithtay.

-According to the person that you tag-

Who is number 2 having a relationship with?
* zhenying. don't know.

Is number 3 a male or a female?
* yatkuan. female.

If number 7 and 10 got together, would that be a good thing?
* patriciatan. keithtay. hmm.. don't know.

How about number 5 and 8?
* shuying. beatrice. no way.

What is number 1 studying about?
* junjie. currently? nothing. he's having holidays now.

When was the last time you had a chat with them?
* junjie. just now.
* zhenying. weeks ago.
* yatkuan. weeks ago.
* taemi. before school holiday starts.
* shuying. few days ago.
* shaunavoon. yesterday.
* patriciatan. weeks ago.
* beatrice. two days ago.
* elaineseng. few days ago.
* keithtay. two days ago.

Is number 4 single?
* taemi. yeahh.

Say something about number 2.
* zhenying. ss.

What do you think about number 3 and 6 being together?
* yatkuan. shaunavoon. junior and senior.

Describe number 9.
* elaineseng. ermm.. nice?

What will you do if number 6 and 7 fights?
* shaunavoon. patriciatan. no way they'll fight.

tggdbyrenee,liteng,michlle,shuenmin,xiner.

many taggers ehh?
lol. sorry for not updating.
my computer facing problems. lol
okayy.. here's the tag.

Rules & Regulations:

Do not copy answers.
The tag questions must be 100% the same.
Tag people after doing tag.No tagging back.

* ainaadelaila.
* jocelyntan.
* mayee.
* minxuan.
* ruwen.
* suemun.
* sueteng.
* wenhao.
* yeelei.
* vanesphung.

How you know 1?
* ainaadelaila. choir.

What would you do if you never meet 2?
* jocelyntan. i got no idea.

What would you do if 3 & 4 dated you?
* mayee. ermm.. imovie date?
* minxuan. no idea.

Would 5 & 6 make a good couple?
* ruwen. suemun. NO cause they don't even know each other and they're girls.

Do you think 7 is attractive?
* sueteng. hmm.. guess so?

Do you know anything about 8's family?
* wenhao. no.

Tell me something about 9.
* yeelei. she owns boon during gambling.

What is 1's favourite past time?
* ainaadelaila. ask her.

What language does 2 speaks?
* jocelyntan. human language.

Who is 3 going out with?
* mayee. no idea.

How old is 4?
* minxuan. 14/2008.

When was the last time u talked to 5 ?
* ruwen. kinda long ago.

Who is 6 favourite singer?
* suemun. ask her?

Would you date 7 ?
* sueteng. i ain't a les.

Is 8 single?
* wenhao. don't know, ask him.

Would you consider being a relationship with 1?
* ainaadelaila. what kind of relationship?

Which school does 2 go to?
* jocelyntan. smk seafield.

What do you like about 3?
* mayee. ermm.. i don't know.




next tag coming up at the next post.

thlvngndthdd.

if i could ever keep that smile.

movie date today.

the dates:
- lydia ling.
- yee lei.
- paul low.
- bryan loh.
- sze jie.
- wen hao.
- kelvin.
- xi yuin.
- jun wei.
- shane.
- sher nong.
- jun yi.

at 12.30, paul and bryan arrived.
they went out again to buy junks and drinks.
later on, the others came one by one.
so, we started off watching this,

saw III

when watching halfway, the dvd got problem.
so, we watched another movie.

scary movie 3

well, that was the 2nd/3rd time i watch it.
still, its ridiculous-ly funny and disgusting.
ahaha. we had lots of laughs there.
next movie,

the flight of the living dead.

its kinda scary there.
we screamed at some parts. LOL
sher nong and lydia left when the movie was playing halfway.
pity cause they missed out some fun after the movie.

after the movie,
the remainings went to the park.
yee lei was sooooooooo kind she belanja-ed me ice-cream. ahah

then me, shane, yee lei went to playground. xD
the rest were playing basketball,
except xiyuin,
she was just sitting on the bench and watching them playing

i took some pictures when we're at the playground. xD

the kid's loves.
shane's ass was too big for the swing. =X

those who're playing basketball.

xi yuin. paul. bryan.

shane.

yee lei.

he was having fun at those bars.

just me.

taken from the slide.

later that, the three of us went back to the court.
then some guys played a match against those who were playing.

the match.

another shot.

je yue was at the other side of the court.

then we went back later that.
left me, jun wei, sek, shane and kelvin.
bryan and paul went off before we got home.
shane was the last to leave. haha.

mum went out.
bathed and ate dinner.
dad came home from work.
then ate bR with sis.

the bR nong bought.

its pistachio and some choc chip thing.
i don't like the pistachio. weird taste.

sis claimed its a heart shape.

the bR.

later that,
as usual stuck to the computer.
around 12+,
waited for mum while watching tv.
was on the phone with nong too. lol
finally she's home, go to room then *thud*
fell asleep due to the tired-ness.

tuning into: smile - connie talbot

dntkptllngmthsstpdwrds.

replies through here again.


szejie - lol. nehh yesterday that one lahh.

smun - ahah yeahh. results next year.

guohao - == ...

boonhui - lol.

boonyau - lol. what if this isn't pms? ...

zhenni - lol. suppose so. trying to?

nong - lolwtf lahh you. too bad i lost the disc. how?

jeff - lol cannot mehh?

mlsngmymnd.

i'm losing my mind soon. shit.
well. sorry cause i didn't update my blog about most events.
all thanks to:

- mood swings.
- stress? lol
- i'm starting to hate this.

i don't have the mood now. just.. i can't stand my life anymore. yes i know you people will start going "ehh don't lahh.. its like this wan lahh" "you okay anot? don't emo lahh" and it goes on. i hate my life and i know i'm not supposed to. i don't know how to express my feelings now. i think its way beter if its bottled up. so just ignore all these could you? sorry for bothering you people reading these.




she wants to go home, but nobody's home.
that's where she lies, broken inside.
with no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes
broken inside.

tuning into: nobody's home - avril lavinge

lstdyfschllffrthsyr.

hey. last day of school.
for us. lol.
more specifically, the form2s.

went school. many students went just to return books.
decided to go to aik hui's house.
in the end, a bunch of us went to her house.

me and andrea went to simone's house first.
andrea wanted to see her house.
simone wanted to return andrea her 10bucks. lol
end up andrea jakunning at simone's room.
LOL

then the 3 of us went to aik hui's house.
all of them were at the field.
so we go there.
saw a dead kitten. *pity*
then went back aik hui's house.
played a lil basketball.
watched them gamble.
ate mcD there for our lunch.
played speed for the remaining time.

then around 4+ close to 5,
a few guys ring on aik hui's doorbell.
then they watced us girls playing speed,
they fooled around too.

xin er showed magic tricks to aik hui's siblings.
they were fascinated.
then we went to the field again.
by that time most of the people had left.

the guys go gamble at the badminton court with their friends.
we girls played at the swings.
took the opportunity with aik hui to bully xin er.
LOL

then around 6,
walked back to school compound.
rot at the canteen till the last bell ring.

nvrtcmbckgn.

aloha readers. =)
the finals for the form2s just end today. *weee~*
can't wait for next week. haha.
movie date!!

damn why can't my mum just stop nagging me about what to eat?
even though i'm suppose to listen it,
but mum, you don't need to repeat it every single day!!
its like you're trying to make me crazy.
when i'm already enough crazy.
how long only this will end? save me. =(

okay. ignore the movie date thing for now.
will tell you peoples when its over. xD
ermm.. well.. exam..
don't know what to say.
just glad its over.
retrieving results next year. lol.
*is that good or bad?* ahahaha.

okay i'm done here. kinda bored now.
trying to make some plans to kill boredom.
before i leave,

all the best to those spm/stpm takers! =)

whtthhllswrngwthm.

exams!! wait, FINALS!!!
i hate them so much.
i'm just plain bored now.
scroll all the way down if you want to kill time.
because its just blank and empty.
so by time you reach below,
you may get frustrated for scrolling all the way down.
have fun scrolling down then. =)





























































































well. hello to those who can see this.
hmmm..
i bet nobody'll know what i'm writing, right?
i mean now.
wait, if you do its maybe because i told you so,
or you're just plain smart.

i got plenty of problems.
i just can't control my temper any longer.
i'm sorry bro, i just can't hold back.
7 full years and still going of unwanted life with parents.
7 whole years and still going wondering what's the meaning of family.

what's the real meaning of family?
i couldn't figure it out.
everyday i got scolded.
when i say everyday, i really mean it.

if you could even believe,
in my chinese essay i wrote about my mom.
about how she treated me these years.
if you're wondering,
the title is "what is your most frustrating problem"
even after my teacher marked it, she called me to see her.
questioning me about my life, my un-done school works, my family.
not many people know what i really feel about my family.
or maybe more to say, only 2 or 3 people do.

you know who you are.
if you're reading this,
i wanna say, thanks alot.
thanks for preventing me doing stupid things to myself.
i really appreciate it.

i always argue with my parents,
especially with my mom.
and i'm the only kid who gets the most and the worst scoldings,
from both my parents.

my mom,
whenever we argue about something which was unfair to me,
i would try to argue with her about my siblings.
in the end,
she'll shout back at me asking me not to bring them into this.
then after a few minutes of being whack and all,
she'll either go to her room,
or else is continue doing her things.
then if something happened more than a time,
she'll bring up what happened the last time and the same thing goes on.
this always happen everyday.

my dad,
he'll keep on saying me about my imperfections,
all my weakness, he'll say all.
when we're going out to eat and can't decide of what place to go,
he'll ask us, the 3 of us,
but now its 2.
then if none of us gave an idea,
more specifically a nice place to eat,
i'll always be the one who get scolded.
why? he said i can't make up my mind fast.
and at some times he'll just point out
all my weaknesses to me even though i know them all.

both of them,
every single day and night of non-stop naggings and scoldings.
i admit i'm always the one who caused the problem,
but they both can't always scold me for that.
you wanna know why?
because,
they'll always make my brother and sister as perfect as possible.
whenever exam results come out,
i'll be the one who get alot of scoldings.
then my parents will take the chance,
to say how good my siblings do in their exam.

whenever i wanna do something,
its always a no.
if its my sister or brother,
there won't be a no.
its so unfair to me!
and whenever i get into a fight with my bro or sis,
my parents will just side them all the time.
i'll always be the one who is guilty.
living in this house is like living in a court.

and at everytime,
whenever something happen,
i'll always have this feeling,
this feeling that never faded for years,
that they are trying to abandon me,
kick me out of the house.
maybe from the start,
i don't belong in this family originally.

i felt like running away from home when i'm 7.
yes 7,
there's nothing to be surprised of.
but i didn't do it.
why?
this is because i don't know the roads when i'm at that age.
now,
i still have this feeling.
but why didn't i do it?
i don't want to make my family worry bout me.
even though sometimes i think they don't even care about me,
everytime.

what should i do now?
i bet my finals won't turn out good,
and i won't be living my life as happy as before.
wait. there's no happiness in me before.
well, there is, but its rare.
i think i'm gonna be living in my own lie for my whole life,
faking a sweet smile to everybody,
showing my real emotions to myself when i'm alone.
so no one knows what i really feel.
i guess i should stop all these.
or else i'll end up crying the whole night,
failing all the papers for tomorrow's papers,
which is the last day of exam.


















































































































did you just had fun scrolling all the way down here?
haha. have a "nice" day then.




tuning into: leave - jojo

cnthldbcknymr.

seems like my patience towards many people can't continue any longer. i'm sorry if all my previous pots bugs any of you. just, don't know. guess there'll be another post tomorrow. about what? guess yourself.

thssmntfry.

hey. ermm. sorry for coming back and bother all of you.
just that i got something to tell a person.
no not the same one. a different person.

hey. its okay for being such sudden. i missed those times when you did things like that. and ermm.. i'm sorry about yesterday. i just.. don't know. give me a few minutes , okay? i missed seeing your name after each vibration of my phone when i receive a message. i missed your voice after that 22minute call that day. i missed the times when i got bulied by you. and yes, the previous post on 30th october, was meant for you. and now, i just want us to be like how we used to be. if can't, its okay, i can't force you. i'm sorry, and i hope you know it. and thanks for the letter.

p/s: its okay for being cheap there.
p/p/s: go fix your handwriting asap.
p/p/p/s: i want it pink.

tuning into: iris - goo goo dolls

thssmypybck.

wait. before i leave.
one more thing.

you said you got friendship problem.
you think ONLY you got this type of problem is it?
got people say you damn easy get bullied by others meh?
do you know you're like wanting attention so much in school?
i don't know if you got the intentions to do it or not,
and i don't even wanna care,
but this is how many people feel about you.
i admit i don't know who,
but there sure is some of them, and i'm one of them.

i'm treating you as a doll?
what now? a small kid playing barbie doll?
i got my own emotions, feelings, problems.
don't tell me i have to follow wtf you want me to do/be.
I AM A HUMAN TOO. NOT ONLY YOU.
you said i throw you away.
if i throw you away, i sure won't talk to you or anything right?!

ehh come on lahh.
if you don't start talking to people they sure don't talk to you one okay.
don't ever give this wtf excuse to me,
"i got no topic to talk about"
yea right, no topic then randomly talk lahh. ==
don't tell me you don't even understand the word random. ==

since you said you're tired of being my friend,
so stressed and sad also,
then go find new ones lahh.
like what you said,
buy new one, throw the old ones away.
i'm already trying my freaking best to treat you good.
you're just the one who keeps on complaining
that you got no friends, nobody wants to talk you,
and everything about those who tried to care for you.

i at least got help you at some times right?
better than ignoring you right?
i now don't know wtf you want me to do.
as if i'm your slave and you're my boss.
you ownself started all these problems and you blame us.
okay, some of it was OUR fault.
but don't ever think that you're RIGHT always.
even i also don't care about people around me.
they want friend then friend lahh.
you also don't have the right to change their thinking.
so why do you have to care about EVERYONE around you?
appreciate those who cared and helped you.
not complaining like hell.
now i'm saying all these, i feel that ignoring you is just the same as CARING for you.
AND whenever you keep on complaining things to me,
i feel like slapping you in the face.
i'm serious.





this is what i want you to know.
because this is what i feel about you too.
another chance? see first.

plscmbcksn.

imissyouso.pleasecomeback.

heyy there. lol.
back from condo. before that klpac.
they were having breakin' it down concert.
had freaking lots of fun there. ahaa.
OMG OMG AARON IS SOOOOO CUTE AND HOT! =)
okay, will update bout those, and also others after my finals.

all the best to all the form1 & form2.
for the spm-ers, same to you! =)

p/s: i'm totally dead for tomorrow's exam! =(
tuning into: missing you - first lady.