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she's always there, never fail to make me smile.

she's the one and only childhood friend that had helped me through most of my problems. when i got anything on my mind, she'd be either the first or the second to know it, cause i'd just go to her seat, pull her to a corner, and start blabbering out all my problems to her. and she'd always give me advices, words to support me, and tries her very best, to help me (and also others) to solve the problems. sometimes we also made our problems into tiny gossips just between us two, and we'll just keep it secret in our heart, where no one knows, but only the both of us.

she is the one who is always there for anyone who needs a smile on their face. whenever i got any problems about something or someone, she'll mostly be the first to come to me and ask, "are you alright? cheer up laa. don't so sad okayy? =)" looking at the smile she flashes to everyone everyday, i could just stare at her silently, put aside those problems, and plaster up a smile cause i don't wanna hurt her feelings. and even though 5 days younger, she's still took care of me just like a small sister. to me, she's the best sister among the circle of friends, and also the best childhood friend ever.

other than being a friend and a sister, i also listed her in my list of idols. she's one of the best person for me to follow due to many of her good morals. her always positive and only 1% of negative thinking taught me how to stay strong whenever facing any problems. no matter how depressing that issue is, she will try her best to think positively, and never let those negative thoughts take the chance to pull her down. but even though she had set this good example for people to learn, i now still fail to improve myself to think things more positively. other than that, she have this courage to stand up for people she care for everytime, protecting them from being bullied by others. i admire her courage alot. and to prevent others from hurting my friends, i have to stand up for them whenever i have to, and i 'd always remember her when i do so, cause i had picked up this courage from no one, but her.

she is the one who will still care about others even when she's emotionally down. even if she's hurt on the inside, she would sometimes still put up a sweet smile, convincing everyone else that she is okay. unless things got worse, then she'll just break down and cry her depression out. but still, she's a very strong and determined girl, and i just admire her cause all i've got is a strong but fragile heart.

on that day, everyone let out their can-you-not-go feelings, thoughts that had been kept for a long time, and tears came rolling down their cheeks, then you can hear nothing except the comforts and sniffles from each other. except for me, i was the cold blooded one on that night. i felt like joining the circle of crying peoples, but i just couldn't do it. i held everything back, kept them to myself, cause i didn't know how to express everything to her. all i did was staring at them, giving them the i'm-not-gonna-cry look, and just gave out some comforting words. all the memories, misunderstandings, fun moments, everything we shared, i am and still will keep them all in my heart, appreciating every single moment we had cherished together.

i guess right now, she's over there, getting use to the weather and everything. maybe's she's missing all of us, i hope she do. but the thing is, i hope that when she starts to think of us, she don't break down and cry. all i want is her to stay strong, and don't forget us. last but not least, i want to tell her that, i love her, and i'm gonna miss her so so much, and please take care over there.

hugs&kisses,
her best childhood friend.