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go on, fake it, and everything's gonna be alright.

sports day's over! well, like obviously (: hmm, even with all the drill training off, still having a hectic schedule :x with Seafield's annual Leo International Relations Day coming up this sunday, i'm totally freaking out like nuts already. there's still so so so many things i haven't completed yet! OMGOSH kill me. how i wish i was able to manage my time super well. urgh. with many conflicts rising and leave, this sure is already a tough year for me.

as an addition to make things worse, mid-term exam is coming near! GG LAA WEYH ._. i haven't even got the time to touch my books, and worse of all, i've been way behind in my studies! PFFT. this is seriously a killer. plus, outdoor camp is gonna be held in between exams man wth wth wth. lagi worse lor. how to enjoy campppppp? ):

for now, pray that Leo IR's gonna go well, and everyone's gonna enjoy themselves there (: for mid-term, i gotta find someone to teach me additional maths, modern maths, physics, and i don't know laaa any other subjects :x





i'm gonna do what you're doing now, and just get on with life. maybe you were the right one, maybe not. who knows? only time will tell, and by then, fate'll show whether everything was meant to be or not. for now, the connection's not there, and its alright, i'm totally fine with it, just that don't want us to be so awkward, okay? you can still talk to everyone as usual, but why not me? you either just keep quiet or you wouldn't give me a chance to speak up. but i guess even if i had the chance to do so, there'd be nothing much to talk about between us, right? all i want now is just that friendship, or even better, the siblings bond to be there, like how everything were like before. i really wish that we could stay as siblings and having conversations like how siblings do.


thinkaboutit,please.