should i get over with it?
i've actually got the damn time to think
"is it worth it to hate someone for my whole life?"
how long could you hate someone?
no matter how big OR small that matter is.
you know...
before i feel like continuing this..
i wanna say,
if you wanna leave a stupid comment or anonymous shit...
keep them to yourself.
i'm not trying to get fucking attentions through this blog.
if you think you're oh-i'm-so-smart-i-can-solve-any-fucking-thing,
get lost straightaway.
ohh what?
i'm being so rude to you?
i'm just being me.
so i bet you know me just the first day or you DON'T even know me.
great.
temper's getting outta control.
get back to the topic.
after that pissed-off post,
i'm wondering..
should i just let everything go..
forget about all those incidents..
and get along with those people.
like what lydia told me:
"the best thing of all is just forgive and forget."
all i can do is forgive.
but what about forget?
more and more things are occuring around me.
as if its... karma?
okayy..
i seriously hope things would be over
and everything will be forgotten.
but that is damn serious hard for me to do.
i ain't like those what you call that?
easy-going people?
i-don't-care-about-those-things people?
i-can-forgive-and-forget-easily people?
i admit.
i miss those times when we're together.
BUT.
after everything you "told" me through your blog,
should i give you the so-called second chance?
you said i was attempting to steal your boyfriend.
you said i crossed YOUR limit.
you said i am a BITCH and you hate me alot.
you said i cause chaos in your relationship.
did i ever planned to ruin it?
did i ever think of RUINING it?
you know..
when i read those words.
i seriously feel like asking you to fuck off my life.
i ain't joking.
and i ain't wanting you to say
"ohh really? great. cause i wanted you to say that for ages."
ohh or maybe,
i know you didn't trust me.
you hurt me the most in my life.
you even WIN those who're trying to make my life miserable.
actually..
i don't even care about the bitch part.
i am already a bitch. so?
look.
i don't wanna re-type those things.
it makes me look like a desperate bitch who's trying to solve her pathetic shit problem.
ohh and what private blog?
i ain't trying to be so busy-body or whatsoever you wanna think of me..
its just..
why ned a private blog when you had a public blog?
ohh to post my pathetic-ness?
say i'm stupid say i'm so perasan.
i'm just making my normal whatthefuck-ness guess.
damn i wish i'm SAW now.
yes i know you'll think i'm crazy.
its because i ALREADY am.
i just wanna take something.. or maybe somebody..
and jus push 'em into a damn fucking blender.
yea and i'll end up appearing on newspaper headlines for murder.
or maybe.. *poof*
gone?
maybe that'll make me feel better.
should i?
but i don't want to leave some people behind.
for example my bodyguard.
he'll sure curse me for doing this if i'm gone.
and also some other people.
damn frust now. fuck.
can someone just kill me?
p/s: sorry for the cursing.
but what about forget?
more and more things are occuring around me.
as if its... karma?
okayy..
i seriously hope things would be over
and everything will be forgotten.
but that is damn serious hard for me to do.
i ain't like those what you call that?
easy-going people?
i-don't-care-about-those-things people?
i-can-forgive-and-forget-easily people?
i admit.
i miss those times when we're together.
BUT.
after everything you "told" me through your blog,
should i give you the so-called second chance?
you said i was attempting to steal your boyfriend.
you said i crossed YOUR limit.
you said i am a BITCH and you hate me alot.
you said i cause chaos in your relationship.
did i ever planned to ruin it?
did i ever think of RUINING it?
you know..
when i read those words.
i seriously feel like asking you to fuck off my life.
i ain't joking.
and i ain't wanting you to say
"ohh really? great. cause i wanted you to say that for ages."
ohh or maybe,
"i'm sorry bout everything. could we start over?"
i know you didn't trust me.
you hurt me the most in my life.
you even WIN those who're trying to make my life miserable.
actually..
i don't even care about the bitch part.
i am already a bitch. so?
look.
i don't wanna re-type those things.
it makes me look like a desperate bitch who's trying to solve her pathetic shit problem.
ohh and what private blog?
i ain't trying to be so busy-body or whatsoever you wanna think of me..
its just..
why ned a private blog when you had a public blog?
ohh to post my pathetic-ness?
say i'm stupid say i'm so perasan.
i'm just making my normal whatthefuck-ness guess.
damn i wish i'm SAW now.
yes i know you'll think i'm crazy.
its because i ALREADY am.
i just wanna take something.. or maybe somebody..
and jus push 'em into a damn fucking blender.
yea and i'll end up appearing on newspaper headlines for murder.
or maybe.. *poof*
gone?
maybe that'll make me feel better.
should i?
but i don't want to leave some people behind.
for example my bodyguard.
he'll sure curse me for doing this if i'm gone.
and also some other people.
damn frust now. fuck.
can someone just kill me?
p/s: sorry for the cursing.
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