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heyy there. yes i know i submitted a post like, one hour plus ago? lol. anyway i seriously feel like expressing some stuffs, but i don't feel like doing it in here. had thought of spilling it in my another very-the-personal blog, i suppose you are a lil shock, but yeah, i got another blog. well, i seriously don't feel like expressing it there too. wonder whats wrong with me. dammit. tried finding someone to talk to, and failed miserably. who am i suppose to confront when i'm facing so many problems in a row? everyone are usually occupied, and i don't wanna spoil their mood, so yeah, i'm being such a loner here right now. i don't know why, this feeling in me, it seriously suck like hell. i suppose only a few of you know i am faking such smile, such normal expression to everyone practically everyday. as what most of you people say, emo-ing sucks. now i find it seriously irritating, its like half pms-ing == i read friend's blogs, some were emo, and i thought,

they faced this kind of problems, and i could just help them go through with it, but why when it happens to me, why can't i face it like how i used to? why is it getting harder every single day?

some of you might know what situation i had faced previously, some of you don't. well i ain't expecting any of you to come right up to me and comfort me after you see this anyway. okay, you can say i'm being selfish? i don't know. go ahead and say whatever you want. comfort speeches, hatred letters/posts, giving advices, i can't control any of you, right? you have your own rights to think and put actions into it, and no one can stop you unless you go too far. okay, i think i'm just blabbering shits too much and its time to shut up.




anyway, after any of you read this, don't come finding me and asking me about my condition. it makes me feel like a despo. so ignore this post completely, and when i said that, i mean it. unless you want me to kenakan you, you go ahead and see what will happen.



p/s: cldytllmwhtswrngwthm?