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what the heck? first, how sure are you that wanker is nick? how sure are you that he set this whole thing up? look, you can go ahead saying that i'm not helping you and whatsoever, i won't even mind, cause in this case, i seriously can't even help you, and i'm siding MY babe. LOOK, she seriously don't have any feelings for you, and you said that she has your heart. wth? anyone can go in and out of her life, depends on what she want to do with them. so what if he played with her hand or hair? that's not a problem if she doesn't mind. he DID NOT made you look as if you were controlling her life. in any other point of view, people can even SEE that you were attempting to taking over her life completely, she's not your girlfriend hello. and yes every guy will be mad if some other guy took their love ones away, but they can't start blaming the shit out of that dude about things they DON'T even know whether he's really the one who did it. AND you ownself had said that you're gonna let go of her. what is this?! you said she emptied all her promises. what about you? have you accomplished yours? come on, i dare you to come right up to me, say whatsoever shits you want in my face. and we'll see what happens. you're not who you were last time, you've seriously changed alot. you're becoming more and more DESPERATE. don't ask how i know many stuffs, i got my freaking own sources and i don't need to tell you every single one of it. i got my right to shut my mouth, and emily has the right to ignore you. she can't possibly be a dog and listen to all your commands, right? fine, not commands, your WISHES. oh yea, you know my profile thats in your blog? of course you do. i got some issues bout it. i'm okay with the "don't contribute" thing, but "She's my ex(useless info)"?! what the heck? if its useless info then why mention? wanna tell the whole world we were once togther? congratulations, you just accomplish that mission of yours. and i'm sure, that you wanna remove that profile of mine and remove my access to your blog this instant. go ahead, i don't mind. its your blog anyway. and i suppose right now, i could even just dare you to write out a hate post of me. you always think that your heart tells you the right stuffs, so you blamed bryan for being wanker at the start. what did he even freaking do?! okay i don't know and i don't even wanna know. and now you assume nick is the wanker. how many more people you want to accuse? the whole wide world i suppose. you even said life's always just work - rest - eat - survive - move on. where's the "move on"? and yes, you mentioned you wanna jump off the balcony. how far to the negative side you want to think? until the signs that lead you to start killing people? at your Falling Back To Perfection post, you told emily you won't do it and let it happen again. but now what, you had emptied that promise like, how long ago? you even said you don't deserve emily yourself. "I was never even like a bro to you, was I? Cause I didn't feel it." fantastic sentence, huh? you said she don't care. and now what do you still wanna expect from her? ANNNNND at your A Broken Heart, A Fixed Life post, you said you FINALLY ACCEPT THAT SHE DOESN'T LOVE YOU. dude, the FACT is, you DIDN'T even accept that! don't even try to con people with that statement of yours. "Loving you, I don't expect anything back"? hey, you wanted way way way way way too much from her. you thought that giving her the world will change her heart? to some people maybe, but her? she stated so clear she don't love you, and you still don't care. you can't force someone to love you, but yet you still go on with it. ever heard of if you love someone, let them go, if they return, they were always yours. if they don't, they never were. yeah yeah, go ahead with your stubborn-ness, and see how far more can you go. what is love? and you tell people "Love is that feeling, that no matter what he/ she does to disappoint you, you seem to forgive the person for who that person is." you never looked like you forgave her, even when she'd disappoint you in whichever way you think of. for now, i've got nothing else to say. but lastly, congratulations once more dude, or more to say, bro, you crossed my limit of patience towards you.

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as far as i know, help you to go through all these won't change your attitude, your desperete-ness anymore. FYI, you don't even NEED to have a damned date for i.u. if you're single. wtf is wrong to hang out with your friends when you don't have a date? its not like if you don't have a date people will laugh at you. think about it.


try being proud of what you have done. like you can even do it. ==